

If I could, I would. The children are mostly back to school now, so there is a sustained level of chaos that surges through the day like the smell of exhaust fumes. The days grow shorter, so that early activities happen as the sun is just coming up and my body strongly suggests to me that something is wrong. Meals are made and disappear. There's not time, it seems, for everything to happen at a natural pace. If I could, I would take off my shoes and lay down in the shade in a hammock and rock my cares away.
She always wanted to feel beautiful. She always wanted other people to think of her as elegant and carefree; to be the kind of person who could drag a mink coat behind her across the floor and not think anything of it. She wanted to be glamorous, like a movie star, to have many lovers and to not pay any mind to where the money went. If she wanted it, she bought it. After the accident, however, she began to change. It was maybe enough just to be alive, even thought each day she awoke to pain. Everyone said that she was lucky, and she thought that she probably was. But, somewhere inside of her, she missed that carefree person who maybe was a little reckless, but who made people turn their heads as she went by. She always wanted to feel beautiful.